It hit me right where I was at.....

I am going through a lot right now. So much so, it is kind of overwhelming. I am just coming off of the 2 year anniversary with the death of Scott and many other crazy life things going on. I opened my bible tonight to a passage of scripture that I have read and known for many years. 1 Cor. 13..... The Looooove Chapter. hahhaha It was just what I needed to hear. It starts out with describing what love is and isn't. Love never gives up, cares more for others than for self, doesn't want what it doesn't have, doesn't strut, have a swelled head, force itself on others. Isn't always me first. Doesn't fly off the handle, keep score, revel when others grovel. It doesn't take pleasure in the flowering of truth. It puts up with anything. TRUSTS GOD ALWAYS. Always looks for the best, doesn't look back, KEEPS GOING TO THE END! Now that is a mouth full of stepping on my toes.

Then it goes on to say Love NEVER dies. Good stuff!!!!

Now to the part that hit me. I have been really struggling with knowing the details of where and why, I am, where I am. I want to know the future and see hope somewhere. In verse 9 of the Message it says "understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always in complete. BUT, when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be cancelled."

Meaning we can't see the situation at hand in its entirety. We have to trust God. We have to know and believe that He will complete what we can't see. We need Him to complete our situations in life. That is what faith and trusting Him is all about.

It goes on to say in verse 12 "We don't see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. (My favorite... I am clamming this) BUT IT WON'T BE LONG BEFORE THE WEATHER CLEARS AND THE SUN SHINES BRIGHT!!!!! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!"

O dear Jesus, would you please allow this storm to pass. And the blessings of your clear blue sky and bright, eye squinching sun to shine down on my life. I long for you to get this storm out of the way and the blessings to fall around me, in ways I could have never imagined.

The last section of this chapter says this... "But for right now, until that completeness, we have 3 things to do to lead us toward that consummation:

1. TRUST steadily in God

2. HOPE unswervingly

3. LOVE extravagantly

All of which do not come easily. They are easy to say and a lot harder to do. I have to trust that God loves me enough to lead, guide and direct my every move. Because I am putting Him first in my life. I have to hope that I am not really missing the mark on the decisions that I am making. And go back to trusting in THE God that is leading me. Then I have to love God first and foremost. So that I am able to love those around me and the "one" that God has for me in the future. Love doesn't take hurt away. But it does give me hope for the future.