Most of you know that on my birthday, July 28th I married an AMAZING man! Paul entered our life and brought 4 incredible kids with him! Most would think... What a burden! I say.... WHAT A BLESSING!!! I didn't know I could feel all of the joy and happiness again. Our lives are crazy! But, we make the absolute best out of what the Good Lord has given. We both know what kind of curve balls that life can throw and we have to enjoy the moments that we have now. It is the small things that become the greatest blessings. Our home is full of nerf swords and shields and war games. Both on video and real life. There is always a battle ragging and a war being won. hahahha The house is full of boys being boys. But, don't be mistaken.... The girls WILL BE GIRLS!!! Lots of girliness to go around. It is a chore to get the boys to realize these girls are girls and not their war zone. They love to have their space to be teachers and moms :) Most of all our home is filled with a whole lot of LOVE!!! Love that the Lord has blessed us with. Yet, what a challenge that the Lord has called Paul and I too. But, man WHAT A BLESSING to be a part of.
Connor is now in Jr. High. I can't believe it. He is in 6th grade and a manager for the basketball team. He is loving the freedom. I know that Scott would be so proud of him and all that he is becoming. I am so proud to be his mom. Paul is teaching him how to fix and work on "manly" things around the house. He is loving every minute of it. He is one of my gear heads :) He has upgraded to Youth group at church. I can't believe how time fly's. With all of the good, don't get me wrong he is still a JR HIGHER!!!! Full of challenges and words for me. LOL He is still a HUGE help for me!!!
Caiden is in 5th grade. He is wanting to be the same age as Connor. He can't wait for his freedom to hit next year. Caiden is playing soccer and loving it. Caiden has the "touch it, it turns to gold" life. He picks up talents very well. Just like Scott. He is fun to watch. He loves to challenge and be sneaky with his brothers. That boy is always looking for a crazy noise to make. Whether with his clapping of hands or just finding a loud OBNOXIOUS noise to make, he is going to find a way to be heard.
Grace is in 2nd grade. She is bold, bullheaded, super girly and ready to pop you on your head. LOL She loves to pretend that she is 10 years older than she really is. Grace is very good at school. She is very motivated. The girl is going to go somewhere in life... Bold and motivated! It is what is going to make her someday, but man it makes for challenging parenting.
Coltin, where do I start? The boy is crazy!!! Never stops talking and asking questions. Coltin is not only where the party is at... HE IS THE PARTY! I often wonder why he has all of the energy. He has more energy in one little body, than all of us combined.
Christian, is just starting the potty training. He has decided that making mud and "watering" the plants are a fun thing (peeing on them LOL). He is not a very outgoing personality. Yet, neither was Grace. So there is hope for him. hahha Christian thinks he is 10 like the rest of the boys. Until he gets hurt. Then he is back to being 2 again.
For September 12th and so many days to come, I will mourn the loss of an amazing man. He still was the man of my dreams. A man, I believe God allowed to be taken home. What a blessing for him. I hate what my kids are now having to deal with (the loss of their father). Yet, I see God all over their lives. I see how God has placed the PERFECT man into their lives. A man that is meeting them all right where they are. Paul is providing exactly what they had been lacking. Each one of them are starting to call him dad. Not by force, but by choice. That is a blessing!
Scott will ALWAYS be apart of our family! He will ALWAYS be talked about freely! Christian, my 2 year old talks about his "daddy Scott" being killed on a motorcycle. At first it was hard to hear, yet what a blessing to know just how much we do talk about Scott. He made a HUGE impact on my life and was such a blessing, I WANT TO PASS THAT DOWN to my kids. I want them to know just who they came from. I also want them to see how blessed they are, that God has provided a 3rd father into their lives... God our father, their "Daddy Scott", and now their "Daddy Paul".
So again, I will mourn this horrible day for the rest of my life. However, I am going to REJOICE in where and what God has done. I want to see all of the MANY blessings that HE has provided. I don't want to ever take them for granted! I am a very blessed girl. I look at my life and I am so thankful!! I/we don't have to understand "why" everything or some things happen. I do have to trust God that HE KNOWS!!! I just read a sign today.... "The peace on the outside is the GOD ON THE INSIDE!!! So true. God is so amazing!!!
I can't end this blog without asking....
What is the legacy that you are leaving behind?
The whole reason for this blog is because of Scott. Who he was! And the legacy that he left behind! The legacy that every life counts! The legacy of Christ in our lives. I think often of what I told the kids the night at the scene... "Daddy got to go home. His work was done here on earth. He has told everyone that he needed to tell about Jesus Christ. Now it is time for us to fight for WHO DADDY WAS AND WHO JESUS IS!!!! I can only hope that my life is representing Jesus LOUD AND CLEAR!!! I may not always do it right... But I WILL NEVER GIVE UP TRYING!!!!!!!
You are absolutely REPRESENTING!! Love you & thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteCori, you are such an amazing woman of God & in general!! I can remember when You & Scott spoke at church in youth and college & career. You have no idea of some of the things that you said really had an impact in my life. I may have been thr girl to talk a lot but it wasn't always about my feelings & what I
ReplyDeletewas thinking in deep thoughts.
Word travels fast, I remember I was at NPC the evening Scott went to be with Jesus. My mom asked me to come to to the restroom with her, she had something to tell me... Conversations never start out good when they start with "I don't know any other way to say this, but to just come out & say it". Me being me, said tell me. And she did...of course I was sad about Scott being gone so soon. But I was even more heart broken for you, your 4 beautiful kids & the 1 beautiful kid on the way... I kept saying "Cori & the kids, Lord be with them" over & over again to my Mom, while crying. All I could do was think about the times you both shared at church & how it touched me. I was also thinking about your beautiful children you had together & the 1 on the way. How does God allow this kind of thing to happen, I asked my Mom. I almost couldn't even describe what I was feeling. I just told her, my heart feels like its breaking, I'm overwhelmed by such sadness & grief for when you had to tell your children. She told me that God had given me the gift of big compassion for others & that God sometimes allow our hearts to feel a glimpse of heart ache that someone is going through. I didn't understand that at the time. I knew & my Mom knew I didn't really know what you were going through, only you knew. We knew that it had to be one of the hardest things anyone could go through. But that God had everything taken care of. God was the only one to know how you were feeling & thinking. HE was the only one who could help you & your kids through this. I prayed continuously for you & the kids for several weeks & later would think of all of you & just pray. That's the only thing I could do to help.
I just really wanted you to know that I was thinking of you & the kids and I have been ever since. I really admire you as a woman of God, wife, & wonderful mother. I hope to be even half as strong as you are. May God continue to strengthen you & the kids & to bless all of you more & more on a daily basis.
Love, Peace & Soul....
Micahla